Leave Of Absence
From 1971 to 1981-a youthful decade- I suspend the use of myself. I was not the actor within my body, but rather an audience for the scenes my body performed, a reader of the fictions my body lived. If this sound ludicrous, that's because it is ludicrous, it is ludicrous in the exact same way your life is ludicrous-you who have convinced yourself, just as nearly people do of the intractable limits of your life, you who have, in all likelihood, mushed yourself into the most miserable allotment of what a life can be, you who have taken yourself captive and called it living. You are not your name, you are not what you have done, you are not what you see or what you have seen [...] But I wanted that - a total, ongoing delusion , a work of art that overtook a life so completely that no seams could be seen, not even by the self who sat suspended inside the body as that body became the stage, the actors, the ticket, the script itself. I leased my body to the theatre beyond my direction. The director was the world itself, the possibilities that world presented. Rehearsals occurred simultaneous to the thing itself."
C.L.
EOANTHROPUS DAWSONI (SMAGGHE & CROSS VERSION)
BEGGARS CANT BE CHOOOOSERS (AMOR FATI EDIT)
